I want you to know this was not an easy decision. I have been thinking about this for months. It is the first thing I think about when I wake up and the last one when I go to bed.
I was born just to meet you.
I have lived just so I could be what you wanted me to be.
I became the strong, independent, opinionated woman you wanted me to be.
And you still could not love me.
I told myself it would be okay.
I would love enough for both of us.
No disagreements, no demands, no ultimatums.
Just me at your services. 24/7. No day off.
I would never ask anything from you.
Except maybe a look,
A touch,
A hug.
Crumbles here and there.
And the years passed.
And I realized those crumbles that keep me alive will never feed me.
My hunger for you will never die.
But I can die.
I can be free from the hunger.
I can make my pain stop.
And I can make your pain begin.
Mary Papas has been in love with the written word ever since she was a kid. Books were always her best friends, sometimes her only friends. She likes to read many books simultaneously while drinking coffee and eating croissants. When she falls deeply in love with a book, she stays up all night to finish it. You can buy her books on Amazon here.
